Just take any position that you find yourself relaxing.

You may remember how much more comfortable you can feel just closing your eyes

and taking a big, relaxing, deep breath.

A natural, easy, comfortable breath.

And go on breathing deeply more relaxed with every breath that you take.

It might be pleasant for you to remember walking on a beach perhaps at Cocoa, perhaps New Smyrna, perhaps at a lakeside, perhaps just an imaginary beach or one your mind had made up from other beaches on which you've relaxed, ....

You might remember standing facing the water the wind cooling your face perhaps the sun warming your back resting on the beach as you feel yourself settling into the sand.

It might be pleasant for you to feel the sound of the waves gently breaking as the wind sighs and the occasional gull cries

you can remember with enjoyment and pleasure the contentment of resting on the beach.

You may remember watching funny little birds dashing back from the waves and running along the retreating water poking their curved beaks into the sand to catch a sleeping periwinkle and scampering back to keep the water off their toes.

You may have watched children playing the same game as you have played going to the edge of the wave on the sand and scampering back to keep the water from your toes just digging your toes into the sand comfortably and you can comfortably relax

as you stand feeling the water swirl around your toes the bottom of your feet washing eroding little grains of sand

as the water rushes back

you can feel your own back in the chair your feet in the air just nothing floating

and the next little wave comes over your feet cooling washing away the sand digging a little hole as you sink into the sand

each wave a little higher as you rest a little deeper as each breath you breath the living breath sinking heavier more comfortable

and the wave comes up over your feet and rushes back washing the sand

leaving

taking away all the feeling and resting

as the next wave comes up over your ankles rushes back washing the sand

leaving

taking away all the feeling and resting

as the next wave come up over you calves just kissing the back of your calves cleaning your shins kissing gently the skin

as if Old Poseidon wanted to make you feel relaxed at home cared for safe private secure

and the next wave comes over your knees just kissing the hollow at the back of your knees and then gently softly easily alone

rushes back

washing cleaning

you

can know how each touch relaxes makes more easy and clean

as the next wave washes up over the top of your legs claning the private parts of you cool touching awakening as you sleep

just resting as you walk deeper into the sea

yourself warm in the sun loose and easy comfortable pleased private easy

and the next wave up over your waist cooling all the rest beginning to lift you easily softly

the next wave into your waist and lifting your arms pushing deeper into the water

and then

diving deep deep beneath the crashing white face of the wave

NOW!.......

going deeper...and deeper

going into that soft green watery world of the beginning

swimming strongly into the deep

through the drifting sea weed

over the brroding brain coral

the lifted branches of the staghorn coral the sharp point of the elkhorn

the crenellated castles of coral dreaming in green blue dream of rest ehaling softly

beneath the heart of the world the old cave the deep pink cave the dark opening sea grasse undulated

many colored tropical fishes scattering the lances of light filtering cleaning

therough the sea

the silvered waves dancing over the roof of the watery world

YOU

apart of all those easy comfortable relaxed and peaceful all those

to be sinking swimming deeper into the heart of the world.

Waves Water Washing

Now

Driving hard into the cave into the pink darkness into the belly

of the old mother of us all

the ocean the base of the world

the night before the light

the old home

feeling

the heart of the world

MOVE

as yo feel yourself swimming deep relaxed a part of those feelings as

exhale

as you breathe out

all those feelings of being a part of all those gentle, soft easy feelings

of being apart of all your pleasant relaxed peaceful common feelings

of easiness relaxation peacefulness and care.

Just to be swimming through your belly as though

you had swallowed yourself

feeling your heart beating shooting the blood into your lungs

to be a part of all the release of the CO2 the carbon dioxide

and loading again with oxygen free bound in a molecule of two

breathing

alive one day at a time relaxed and healthy

peacefully

feeling the blood surging lungs heart arteries brain belly legs feet toes arches heels shins calves knees and the bend of knees thighs the soft vulnerable inward thigh the hard irascible outer thigh

joining in that dark V saltily to ascent into the private night.

All the coiled intimacies swimming the white dolphins swimming caring protecting.

All through the night.

Killing as they go.

Cleaning reconstructing

Taking this which is not me and making it this

Me

a piece of steak and soon a strand of hair

a bite of fish, and brain

a carrot turns into fingernail

a grape a chemic for nerve conduction

each process all the 2000 or more enzymes the life

all; the knowing

each cell of your body emerged from one

the blend of father and mother

half each and then

in that ineffable moment, that moment no one can tell of knowing and ineluctably to waste

easily swimming flowing growing becoming

as you grow

the cell doubled became two

then four eight six teen thirty two

sixty four 128 256 512 1024 2048 4096 8192 16384 32768 65536 131072 262144 524288 1048576

each cell a beginning of the part of every other cell all the double coil containing all the knowing all the learning of a

billion years over and over to know as the waves wash over you on every part of your body

soles crown heels toes nose ears face face face neck ankles and shins heels and calves knee

soft hollow behind hard bone before thigh

thigh holding the hips above all the secrets of you bellow

the side round chest rising and falling

arms and the soft silent hollow beneath the chest falling

neck face ears crown

all the parts of the body the parts I say of the soul

now

to know.

With each part of you touching

feeling the easy warmth all over your body stronger cleaner healthier

swimming with the dolphins protecting reconstructing maximizing

NOW.......

and while your there dreaming of how well you can know all the grandfathers

2 before your father then 4 8, 16, 32 64

128

to know that there each life distills

into your own

one at a time

just touching as you sense each part to be a part of the part

to know.......

each part

as you exhale

perhaps pleased

to think

among all those grandfathers

there is at least one

with whom

you could

easily and happily

creatively and joyfully ride the river talking and lughing dealing and doing

and all the while you sift and sort among all those of whom you are the distillation

you might even think weeks months years decades centuries millenia aeons

I wonder if it would be millenia ago or aeons

when man first walked the Old uvai Gorge deep in Africa finding

the First Mother its an unspeakably inescapable knowing

that in every cell of your body in those envelopes of difference the other form of life shaped from before life welcomed oxygen before the atmosphere was reducing and when oxygen was deadly peril

that life encapsulated and learned to use all those hot burners

in the mitochondria of every cell the double helix the coil is formed and the DNA the de oxy ribo nucleic acid

all came in every man from his mother

and to every mother from her mother and to all mothers from the first mother a million and half years ago

from Africa

there was an actual

Eve

One

Mother of us all

still shaping life health knowing

and in every cell of your body is the blueprint the DNA for the nucleus

all the distillation of millions

TRILLIONS

of grandmothers grandfathers survivors living free strong per petuating life by living

in every cell of your body and you the distillation of aeons of survivors

the great tyrant lizard king tyrano saurus REX

towering over the earth thundering eating and tearing

and between his toes sneaking warm and furry quiet nursing and loving little mammals

mothers sending their message of survival down the stream the stream of life

distilled into

you.

Just think .... back when Robin Hood was running around Sherwood Forest, when Wicked Prince John was being bad with the Sheriff of Nottingham

and King Richard the Lion Hearted was banging away all over Europe and the Holy Land

you had a trillion grandfathers just 2 times 2 40 times

and when you go back 40 more times about when Jesus walked in Galillee

why you need a trillion times a trillion lines on a chart to reach the beginnings just 80 generations ago

and when you get back not two thousand but two million ah then

then you have use some other way of talking about numbers

a trillion times a trillion in just two thousand

a thousand times that and you've just reached the beginning

and all of those distilled into you all compressed into the blueprint in one single cell

beginning

again.

Now ......

you might want to let that dream

that awareness that every breath you take includes some molecules of air from a giant kapok tree in Borneo

a huge ficus spreading over acres in Brazil

billions of molecules from plankton in the ocean the algae in the lakes

roses, soild bacteria, grass trees

the breath of flowers

and in every single breath a statistical inevitability in e luct ably

some of the breath from all of your successful living loving breeding ancestors

all of the space and knowing

distilled and descending into you

and with each breath you exhale

you breath out easily the gift of the breath of life

to the roses

inevitably a part of the river of life as you live feeling the strenghth of all those grandmothers

all those strong fathers begetting fathers

distilled in you

as your health as your strenthgh as your life deepens and grows every breath that you give to the flowers.

It might be pleasant as you swim back

to swim easily and deeply into the space

that deep and crystal cavern beneath the heart of the world

there under the foundations the pillars root

and feel the heart of the world move.

As you feel the life of old ancient mother moving in you the tides of life of getting and giving of receiving and passing on the breath of life of roses.

As you swim there in the quickening sea beneath the beating heart feeling your own heart breath.

Swimming out now into the sun, into the green lattices of the sun sparkingly on the silver surface the waves dancing above

as you swim over the crenellated castles of coral, through the quickening sea

the many colored fishes the friendly dolphins the easy soft bouyancy of your body as swim breathing easily

devouring the sharks of disease with all your friends the dolphins the orca spreading around you like a cloud of living

chasing into the dark the weak and pun cells the sharks the rays

as you swim into the light through the drifting weed over the undulating sea grass up the slope of the bottom of the ocean

into the surf,

and with a happy easy rush out of the wave, feeling the bottom strong on your feet pushing with the strenghth of your thighs

pushing through the water to the beach

water streaming from you feeling splendidly alive alert aroused with nothing

just nothing

as you walk back up the beach

easily remembering

each time you practice meditating on these scenes

you may find

even though it doesn't happen in the office

yourself falling into a deep and natural sleep

knowing ......

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